Monday, December 08, 2008
The other night Gwen and I drove to Price alone. Joey stayed home with the boy. I thought Gwen would fall asleep if I left late and I could have a quiet drive. She stayed awake the whole time. And that girl can talk. She never stops. We had some funny conversations, and this is how the whole trip started. We are five minutes into our drive and Gwen says, "Mom, can Dad hear us?" I say "No." and she says, "Good, then we can talk."
So tell me. When did you start feeling weird and awkward around your dad? I know I didn't start when I was four. But I can't recall exactly when it started. I remember that throughout junior high and high school I would bring a book with me to watch tv. Just in case a maxi pad commercial or something came on. Then I could pretend that I had no idea what was going on and somehow that was less embarrassing.
And when can you go back to feeling normal around your dad again? I think I have gotten to that point. But it took having my own kids to get there. I dreaded telling my dad that I was pregnant with Gwen. I didn't like knowing that he would know what I had been doing. Even after being married for two years I thought maybe he wouldn't think I was doing THAT.
There is something about having children though that takes away all your pride. I could talk to my dad about anything now and not feel like blushing for a second. And now I realize that I could have always talked to him about anything. So how can I make Gwen realize that she is way better off confiding in Joey. Did anyone out there ever not go through an awkward phase with your dad?
And what about you boys out there? I don't want things to get awkward with Max. I hate feeling awkward. I remember walking into the kitchen one sad sad day to hear my mom giving all three of my little brothers the S-E-X talk right at the kitchen table. I don't want to do that. There are a lot of words that make me cringe, still. Not only every proper word for almost every body part, but things like panties and caress. Blah. I guess I will need to practice. If anyone is giving these sorts of talks in the future, can I sit in? Could I bring my camcorder? That would make giving the talk a lot easier for me, if I could just push play. The sad truth is that by the time my kids are in 2nd grade they will probably know more than me.
Has anyone been successful with homeschool?